My Journey Through Rejection and Restoration (PS, God Really Sees You)
Growing up, I often felt inadequate and rejected. Thoughts like, “If only my mom hadn’t given birth to me… maybe she would’ve had a better life,” haunted me for years. Or "Maybe if I were as good as ___, they would want me."
That mindset tormented me. It pushed me to perform, to prove myself, and to constantly seek approval from others. I had such low self-esteem that I couldn’t believe in my abilities or accept compliments. I constantly felt the need to earn love, to be enough for people to stay.
On the other side of the spectrum, I became guarded. I didn’t want to risk rejection again, so I stayed alone. I shut people out. I didn’t open up. I feared getting attached unless I was really sure you wouldn’t leave. That fear made me selfish, reserved, and overly self-conscious.
Out of those feelings came unforgiveness, bitterness, and even hatred—especially toward men. I grew wary of my mom, too, because I blamed myself for being born. I felt sorry for her, as if her life would’ve been better without me.
During a counseling session at church (deliverance), my counselors gently asked me:
“Why do you regret being born?”
I cried and told them everything.
Then they had me read Psalm 139 out loud and asked me what I thought it was about.
I cried even more—but this time, they were happy tears. That very same day, the truth had set me free.
GOD MAKES NO MISTAKES.
He saw me before I was even born; He FORMED me and KNEW me! My whole story! Isn't that amazing?
I wrote that and pasted it on my wall to be reminded of His love and thoughts about me.
Here’s the fun part!!! 😆
Of course, God can heal us in an instant. But sometimes, He doesn’t. Instead, He walks with us through the process so we’re strengthened and we truly learn.
It’s like cleaning a house—bit by bit, room by room. I had only surrendered a small part of my heart to Him. Deep down, I still felt shy, inadequate, and inferior—feelings that kept me from fully stepping into the calling God had placed on my life.
This morning, just before heading to church, I noticed the Psalm 139 print that had fallen off my wall weeks ago. I finally picked it up and put it back on the wall.
And would you believe it?
One thing about God? He answers.
When He restores and heals, He doesn’t do it halfway. And when He calls us, He doesn’t ask for just a portion—He asks for everything. Full surrender. Full trust.
And when we give Him that?
Watch how He restores.
He’s still teaching me, and I’m so grateful for His love and patience. But praise God—by the power of Jesus Christ, I can come out of agreement with the rejection that was spoken over me and enacted upon my life.
If you’ve ever felt rejected, unloved, or like you were a mistake...
Read Psalm 139.
Let it remind you of how deeply and intimately God loves you. No one could ever love us more than Christ Himself—the One who died for us and rose again to hand us victory and lead us into the beautiful destiny He has prepared for us. ❤️
Indeed, we are fearfully and wonderfully made! I'm gonna add it here:
God created the whole world in 6 days, and we regard His creation as wonderful and breathtaking. But US? His prized possession (James 1:18)? He formed us so intricately for 9 months! God makes no mistakes. You are deeply loved by God.
For the longest time, I believed I was a mistake—unwanted, unloved, and unseen. But God’s Word tells a different story. In Isaiah 43:4, He says, “You are precious to me. You are honored, and I love you.” Those aren’t just words to ancient Israel—they reflect the heart of a God who never changes, and who now calls me His own. I am not a burden. I am not forgotten. I am precious, honored, and loved—and that truth is louder than every lie rejection ever told me.
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